Please know I love you to the moon and back. Where do I begin. You have been a strange wonder to me since the first moment I held you. I remember looking at your face and into your eyes and thinking ,”What are you going to be like when you grow up? What will you create? Will you be nice? Will you like me?”. My relationship with you is a unique one. And I am sure that it is like non other that I have ever known before or will come to know on my journey here. We have shared a mother, a father, a family, a micro-community that created experiences that have collectively defined each of us.
I know I haven’t always been the best sister. And if I ever did anything that left a permanent scar on your heart I am sorry. I am even more sorry for the ones I can’t apologize for b/c I am unaware of them. Perhaps one of the hardest things to come to terms with when you are in a position of someone looking up to you is that your best will inevitably fall short of their expectations. In some shape or form you will fail them because they will either outgrow you or surpass you. You most likely would agree that disappointment is the natural product of holding any expectation. lol. But I do want you to know that I have always tried to do my best to be a good sister. I try because you matter a great deal to me.
I know my love is tough at times. However, it is not without a great deal of thought and always with the best of intentions. At times I know you feel like I don’t get you. Just know that, even in the face of our many disagreements, I see you. You may not think that is true at times. But it is true whether you like it or not haha. I love you so much. And I see your beautiful little soul every time I look at you, the same one I saw when I first held you. You are my baby brother: A beautiful gift from the universe that I with out a doubt am constantly learning from. Thank you for choosing to be here.